imagine a different world.

Ever since I wrote Growing Up or Simply Growing Wiser? and How come no one told me this?, I have wanted to write a follow-up, a new post in the series. However, ever since those two posts, a lot of nothing and a lot of something, has happened. My life has changed, yet in a way, it has stayed the same.

Throughout our lives, we are on a search, a hunt, so to speak. We are searching for that one person who we want to spend the rest of our lives with. Some start this search early in their lives, while others begin looking later in their lives. There are early-bloomers, later-bloomers and everyone in between. No matter when this process begins, most everyone in this world tries to complete this task. Most everyone wants to love someone, and to be loved by someone.

During this process, of trying to find Mr. or Ms. Right, we refine our needs and wants, what we like and don’t like. Along the search path, we find plenty of Mr. or Ms. Wrongs, and only eventually, down the road, do we realize that we have actually found Mr. or Ms. Right. Therefore, as we continue on this search, we can make sure not to make the same mistakes as in the past, we can avoid what we don’t like and try to find more of what we do. We can make sure that we do not settle. We can make sure that we never give-up.

On my path, my journey, to find the one I will love for the rest of my life, I have taken the road that is only paved for me. It seems as though my search has fit me to a “T.” I believe myself to be unique, different, and I feel as though my search has followed suit. In my eyes, me, and my search are, essentially, one in the same.

As I said earlier, you date, and go on this journey, to make sure you find the right person, and to insure that you do not settle. I have had a few relationships, and learned a lot. I have kept this in my mind as I have continued on this search, the search that has brought me to a path that I have yet to walk on. A path that involves another. I am in unchartered territory, territory that I have always knew I would enter, but had yet to do so. However, this does not scare me, or frighten me, as it might have in the past. It actually does the exact opposite. It makes me smile, and excites me for the future, for what is to come.

I have gone on this journey for longer than I realize, and it has brought me to where I am today. It has brought me to someone who makes me feel like I have never felt before, no offense to the ladies in my past. I do not know if this path will be long and will take me months or years to walk on, or if it will be short, and end before I know it. I certainly do not know this, and believe that no one has that answer.

However, if anyone believes in feelings, or hunches, as I do, I lean towards long. I do not want to get ahead of myself, I have done that in the past, and has gotten me in trouble, but this is different, very different. I have been using the word “different” and “differently” to describe my relationship with this amazing girl, even before there was a relationship. The fact that this feels different then my past relationships, the ones that ended, that didn’t work, that are no more, says a lot. It tells me that this is something special, something unique, something that will last.

I will end this post, this long rambling post, with an example. Last night, this girl, my girlfriend, came over after not feeling well all day, to watch a movie. We sat on the couch, and did as most couples do when watching a movie at home, we cuddled, and held each other. Although I was watching the movie, I was also focused on my feelings and what I was thinking. I kept saying to myself, I could stay here forever, and almost wanted to. It might sound corny, and well, it might actually be corny, but that is what I was thinking and feeling.

Eventually comes a time, when people must go home, and that was no different last night. However, what was different, was that no longer than 15 minutes after she left, I already missed her. I continued to miss her until I went to bed, this morning and now. Even though I know she needs her rest because she isn’t feeling well, I wish she was coming back over this evening, so I could stop missing her.

My life has changed since those two previous posts. I said I wasn’t ready for a serious relationship, that I was happy with my life. However, if when I wrote that original post, I knew how happy I would be now, I would have never written it. My life is great now, and I can’t wait to continue walking on this path, hand-in-hand, with my girlfriend, Rachel.

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